The Step Never Taken

I found
Myself
Again
In that terrible, divine place.

Trapped
In the thoughts
Of all I had done
Of all I had become
And could not undo.

Frozen,
In a moment
That was not mine.

I had gone no further
Stopping in my movement
Stopping my pursuit
My happiness
Was in stopping.

I had stopped.
I am stopped,
My every step forestalled.
My wish to propel myself out
And yet for what?

Only to stop again.